(this love is) eternal
love was a drug
how the fuck I’m ‘sposed to stack up
if I ain’t never got no back up
and how the fuck I’m ‘sposed to glow up
if u ain’t never fuckin showed up?
five fuckin years now this motherfuckin bullshit
caught up in her eyes til I’m screamin from a pulpit
rip off my own face so I can’t see anymore
hard to look up at the sky with my heart on the floor
yeah, blood blood blood blood blood everywhere
tangled in my thoughts scratch n claw my fingers bare
and I’d still give my life for her if she was here
cause this love is eternal
and it’s my biggest fear
to never know…again…what it means…to care.
and I gave it my all but I’m not what you want
I gave it my all but I’m not what you want
even tho you fuckin slit my throat
and watched me bleed the fuck out into this love we wrote
you don’t gotta bring the roses or a fuckin casket
self sufficient as shit – how you think we lasted?
ghosts ghosts ghosts in my reflection
internally torn externally scorned
fuckin choke and slap me out like the bitches in porn
pull my hair curse my heart how this love is born
and still, to this motherfuckin day, I wouldn’t have that shit any other way
I pop a pill to cop a feel of what was yesterday
because your love was a drug and it fuels me
and I gave it my all but I’m not what you want
I gave it my all but I’m not what you want
pretty good friends
where do you go when all that you know is something that died so long ago?
bleeding love in arms open
sean e come back to life
even if it’s in the afterlife
you can’t live like this and hang yourself on the loss of your future wife
you thought you had your shit all laid out
now your heart done got played out
but it’s time to cash in turn to lil fuckin cinn
slash a bitch cause change comes from within
friday night it’s the opiates and saturday the benzos
not the steadiest diet but they make pretty good friends tho
fuck it up fuck it up fuck it up
yeah swallow it feel that hug
inside it’s the only love you can rely on bless the pharma plug ugh
one day you’ll get that touch
but right now it’s all in the rush
the only way to get high is lookin into her eyes seein life that you thought was fucked
that you thought was fucked that you know is fucked that you feel is fucked not givin up
where do you go when all that you know is someone that died so long ago?
friday night it’s the opiates and saturday the benzos
not the steadiest diet but they make pretty good friends tho
pretty good friends they might make you rip off your fuckin skin
but they won’t stab you in the back and leave you broke as shit with panic attacks
thinkin bout love lost and days you won’t get back
overcome
fuck food imma buy drugs
and after that shit imma fall in love
with myself just to see what it does
to my health and if i overcome
how can I grow if I can’t show
you how to move past the dark in my own mind
stayin steady walkin sketch streets finessin for a new plug
but maybe what I really need from you is a new drug
the oxy runnin through my blood has been tapped out
and all these colors in my life fade to black now
a need to feed the inner fiend, embrace the pain and what it really means
fuck food imma drugs
and after that shit imma fall in love
with myself just to see what it does
to my health and if I overcome
I’m poppin pills and poppin seals to remember how it feels
with a knife in my chest but I refuse to let it kill
the heartbeat inside of me that’s flourishing
even tho I know my soul needs more nourishing
drip drip drip drip shut off this leaky faucet so that a bitch don’t slip
and I don’t know how much time I’ve got left to shovel the rest of this dirt so I can forget (you)
fuck food imma drugs
and after that shit imma fall in love
with myself just to see what it does
to my health and if I overcome
the choice
when i close my eyes I see your face
hovering above my bed in spades
it’s not the same feeling as before
now that she’s inside my head I’m really wanting more
when you left the door so open wide
the breeze swept in I froze and nearly died
now that she’s come through to warm it up
I’m starting to feel like myself and getting less fucked up
now that I can see what you really meant for me
like a loaded gun
put the pistol to my head and pull the trigger when you’re done
I was so in love with you but that was when we were
still young and before-
you made the choice to go away
you made the choice on that day
you made the choice ya voice is heard
and in the end I get what I deserve
when she opened up to me I knew
this was something that I had to pursue
alone in the dark I cannot stay
now I know it was your ghost just keeping me awake and –
you made the choice to go away
you made the choice on that day
you made the choice ya voice is heard
and in the end I get what I deserve
see u feel u
powder in my mouth
hand on her blouse
take it to the couch
oh you feel it now
so i focus on ya nose ring
and all these things we’ve been takin
bite down like u own it
there is no good morning
we swim in confusion
we live in this mourning
we live in this mourning
take it all off for me…
we stay stuck in this goddamn mourning
fiendin for fresh flesh in the morning
on my skin I can feel you breathing
it’s so tense yet the seizing is pleasing
cover that shit in liquid
how fluid your hip is
and inside you feel this
drenched in sweat as we kiss
I can see u next to me, get u fucked up right on sextacy
I can see u next to me, get u fucked up right on sextacy
I can feel u next to me, get u fucked up right on sextacy
I can feel u next to me, get u fucked up right on sextacy
Getcha fucked up right on sex, getcha fucked up right on ex
powder pills medicine distress
was it down with a burn n a flex
pupils size of the moon
candlelight like a ghost in the room
I can feel ya love like a tomb
don’t worry you’re cumin soon
I can see u next to me, get u fucked up right on sextacy
I can see u next to me, get u fucked up right on sextacy
I can feel u next to me, get u fucked up right on sextacy
I can feel u next to me, get u fucked up right on sextacy
five little words
it’s hard to know where the time goes
when you stop livin for yourself
and you dig and dig and dig…
peel it back now can’t retract now
actin like I like I really fuckin know how when it goes down
crows in the dark still gotta feed in the light
and when I’m feelin weak gotta believe in the fight
back n forth n back n forth
yeah I know I’ve been here I’ve been here before
my whole body is sore my body is sore
and now I gotta open the door to open the door
to see is it
is it true
can I escape all of this for you?
caught in a wave so this candle it gon burn out
five little words I don’t know how it’s gon turn out
depression n flexin n reminiscin while we stressin
five little words when you gonna learn your lesson?
five little words when you gonna fuckin learn
play with fire you get burned you gonna end up in an urn
I still seem the same I learned to mask the pain
and I know you’ve got my heart
wrapped around your twisted mask I can’t look back
if I can’t taste the poison in your thighs am I alive?
caught in a wave so this candle it gon burn out
five little words I don’t know how it’s gon turn out
depression n flexin n reminiscin while we stressin
five litle words when you gonna learn your lesson?
five little words…I don’t need you anymore.
(this love is) eternal
we’re falling apart
and I know the distance kills us both
even tho you
were the one who spoke and then broke
everything we had for the sake of growth
this love is eternal
so it still grows
I know, I know, I know, I know
it grows.
run baby run
this is the end this is the end
on the edge of the water you drowned your best friend
high on power and status blinded by wealth
lost freezing cold countin’ bands by yourself
does it add up (nah) does it make sense (nah)
droppin atomic bombs without a pretense
lookin back at the bodies on the floor you’re cryin out for help but you started the war
locking hands and speaking softly
without rings still meant love to me
if you show weakness they’re gonna cut ya throat
kick the chair from your feet and leave you hangin from a rope
and if you show weakness they’re gonna tear you apart
when you need em the most turn their back and depart
but I’m forever a part…
you can go far away from me but
i am still so in you it’s true ohhh
you can go far away from me but
i am still so in you it’s true oohh
you can run baby run baby run
but you can’t escape the bullet from the barrel of a gun
when it’s in your own hand lookin bloody n stunned cause you’re fuckin around shootin shit for fun
honey eyes in rainbow shadows
I could still see yours in mine
knick knack paddy whack give this dog a bone
you ain’t never comin home cause you chose to be alone
when you shatter your own heart you’re livin injury prone
so I’m fuckin on ya bitch while you’re lurkin on a phone
you can’t escape this shit
when you shoot expect to be hit (to be hit)
I never did you wrong I gave you all of me for so long
so, so long
you can go far away from me but
i am still so in you it’s true ohhh
you can go far away from me but
i am still so in you it’s true oohh
breathe again
she helped me to sleep again
and she helped me to trust a friend
and she helped me to love again
and she showed me to breathe again
again, again, again, here we go again
and again and again and again…
she came into my life I need someone to ride
something to hold onto so I dipped inside
not just the touch of skin, a fresh fuckin mind
to fight off the demons without pills n wine
smashin through the city, yeah grippin her thigh
lockin into this vibe I’m catchin fire from her eyes
and I know we’re fallin fast, sober as fuck feelin high
but she gave me all her love when I thought I might die
she helped me to sleep again
and she helped me to trust a friend
and she helped me to love again
and she showed me to breathe again
how to breathe again
oh, here we go again…
SESPOOL 